I don't want to hide anymore.

Hi. So i've been blogging alot for the past couple of days.. it's because i just need to express myself about how i'm feeling.. but i can't express fully because i'm still conscious about what people will think of me if i start expressing EVERYTHING. I could still tolerate not saying everything on my blog because i actually have a friend whom i can say everything too. But now, i don't know who to trust anymore because.. she's keeping things from me & she's starting to judge me. I had no problem sharing all my problems & stories to her because she never judged me.. But now.. things are starting to change. Therefore, i assume that i'll be blogging more & more from now onwards. 

This is my blog. I say things that are locked deep inside my heart here. I spill all my doubts, opinions and problems here. I don't like it when people just start laughing about the things i post in my blog at school. By people, i mean friends. Would you like it if i found your blog, and laugh at your face thinking it's all a joke? I bet you won't like it, right? And yes, so what if i camwhore and posts some pictures in my blog? At least it's my blog right? Not like it's facebook or anything. And screw you, i don't even camwhore that much. Okay, maybe average lah. But so what? It's my own choice whether i want to take pictures or not. How the hell does that affect you? And yes, i may laugh & shit with you, but i do those to cover all my embarrassment & regrets. Whenever you laugh about my blog, i feel regret. Like.. i regret what i did for expressing how i truly feel. Well fjhfs you, it doesn't feel nice, okay? At the end of the day, i'll always doubt myself & think if i regret spilling my thoughts in my own personal space. Bitch please, THIS BLOG IS THE ONLY PLACE I CAN SPILL MY DEEPEST THOUGHTS & PROBLEMS, OKAY? None of my friends care enough/have enough time to listen to my nonsensical problems & crap-talks. Only this blog gives me all the time i need to vent out everything.

You don't just invade my personal space and make it go public, ok? Yes fine, i know this blog is public. But that doesn't mean that you need to tease & insult me about it in REAL life. Want to know why? BECAUSE IT'S MY DEEPEST THOUGHTS WE'RE TALKING ABOUT HERE. I don't enjoy being laughed at for expressing myself. What remains in my blog, stays in my blog. I don't need people like you to do anything about it. I'm tired of everything. TIRED. And just stfu and don't even try to say things like 'i have more problems than you' or shit like that, because you don't know fuhdkfjhd about me! AND YES I'LL ADMIT THAT THERE ARE WAAAAAAY MORE PEOPLE WHO HAVE MORE PROBLEMS, but i can't stand it when people just assume that i have a perfect life when in reality, i don't! I know there will always be someone who'd rather be in my position, BUT BE MORE SENSITIVE, FOR GOODNESS SAKE. 

I'm trying my best not to cuss or whatever but.. SDHFDJNVD. Urgh!!! I just can't describe how shitty i feel right now. 

I'm sure you also have your own little venting-out place, so please understand the fact that my my venting-out place is my blog. I made it public because i want to voice out.