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"Don't walk infront of me, i may not follow. Don't walk behind me, i may not lead. Walk beside me and be my friend."



Am I a bad friend?

Because i don't know what i'm doing anymore. I don't know what i'm doing anymore. I don't know whether what i'm doing is right or wrong. I'm just.. doing stuffs randomly. Okay randomly is not the right word. Mindlessly- to be more exact. Okay so as i was saying, i don't know what's happening because i have no idea WHY it's happening. I don't know how all these started. Too much things occuring at such a short period of time. My brain feels like exploding sometimes. Urgh. I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know, okay? I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING. Wooohoo, you now have the right to call me dumb. Whee~

I think i'm a bad friend because i treat each of my friends differently. I treat some of them a weeeny bit more nicer because i don't think they'll be able to withstand my shitty personality/attitude. And for my more-trustable/more-understand friends, I'm myself around them because... well i trust them & i don't think they'll judge my true colours. WOW, i sound like some two-faced bitch. Haha, but you gotta admit that you treat people whom you're not very close with nicer than those whom you're closer with, right? Haha yes, i know you do. Everybody does that. It's just that the way i phrase it sound more... meaner. LOL. Okay anyway, i'm sorry to all those whom i've offended/hurt because of my actions. Heh, you people know who you are.

And to this specific friend of mine, Thalia, thank you. Thank you so much for being a true friend that everyone would want to have. Yes, i'll admit that you annoy me sometimes, but you know that, don't you? Haha, i love our honest friendship. It's like.. it's so.. unique. Anyway, thank you for teaching me school-related stuffs SPECIALLY MATHS & SCIENCE because you know i know that i suckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk at those 2 subjects but you still continue to help me &.. well, you're so patient. HAHAHA. And i know i'm superrrr slow when it comes to those 2 subjects, but you're so patient & cool like that. Anwyay, thank you for always understanding that i have other closer friends & that's the reason why i'm not always with you in school. And i'm sorry if i keep making you feel.. like tapian like that. >< But really ah, i'm glad you know what's my HONEST opinion about you. And thank you for being one of the MOST TRUSTABLE and MOST DEPENDENT friend i've ever have. You are such a great friend oh gosh i wanna cry. Haha. thank god for letting me meet someone like you. BUT BUT BUT, stay strong okay? I know you know that i'm not really a stable/dependent friend like yourself, & i apologise for that (from the core of the bottom of my deepest heart.) I'm just.. not.. a good friend. I'm sorry.

I will TRY to be better, but if i can't, i'm sorry in advance.. I'm just.. born this way. Anyway, i hope you didn't regret meeting a stubborn/annoying girl like me.

Okay.. idk what to say anymore.

Till then.