having no confidence is a scary thing
trust me, i've been there
to be frank, i just got out of it
or at least i'm still trying to.
it's a scary thing because you feel so
small and
inferior towards everyone,
even those closest to you.
it was really hard for me to open up to people,
no matter how well i clicked with them.
i could never feel a sense of belonging anywhere,
or with anyone.
i felt so alone and insignificant,
and i felt like i deserved it.
there's no doubt that a lot of people face the same thing -
insecurity is a real bitch,
one that's tough to beat.
everyone copes with insecurity differently,
and you'll probably laugh at how i cope with mine.
since i gained the ability to remember things,
i was raised on watching shows.
yep, you read that right.
my childhood didn't consist much of games, technology or whatsoever.
i was probably 6 years old, watching Filipino telenovelas everyday with my grandma.
"A telenovela is a type of limited-run television serial drama or soap opera produced primarily in Latin America."
- Wikipedia. (Philippines was a Spanish colony thus there's a lot of Spanish thingymajigies incorporated into our lifestyle.. i think.)
okay sorry about that little backstory sidetrack.
the point is, i cope with my insecurities by watching shows / dramas. it may have shaped my perspective towards life differently compared to the rest, but it also helps me think of how to handle real life problems.
NOW DON'T JUDGE OR LAUGH ----
but recently, i've been watching a lot of naruto (yes, the anime)
and it's been helping me a lot in coping with obstacles in my life.
insecurity, being one of the major ones.
i'm not gonna emphasise on how or why it helps me here,
but feel free to ask me personally hehe
let's just say i'm able to relate with a lot of the characters,
and apply their "ninja way of life" to mine.
lmao that sounds cheesy as heck..............
ok bye idk what to say alr, maybe i'll continue this when i'm feeling it
CARLSIZZZLE SIGNING OUTTTTTTTTT
1:18AM
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