Bidding 2015 goodbye

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   I'm pretty sure we could all agree that 2015 wasn't the best year ever, yet we wouldn't trade it for anything else.. or is it just me? 

2015 has been hectic as hell for me.. despite actually having 'nothing' on my plate. By nothing, I meant not being enrolled in a school (because of my previous O-level fuck up). However, it has been the most challenging year so far, and I'll be eternally grateful. 

It may not seem difficult to most of you, but holy shit, it truly was a rough year for me. Retaking a major exam, seeing all my friends move forward with their lives, being stuck in the past, feeling left out and all those bs? It's harder than it looks. It really is.

But despite 'being stuck in the past', 2015 has been super eventful for me. It's filled with so many new experiences that I'm really thankful for. 

So yes, as shitty as this may sound & as much as I don't want to admit it, I'm thankful for fucking up my O's..

Okay that sounded weirder than I thought. 

I guess what I'm trying to say is, I'm grateful I decided to take a risk, to redo my mistakes. I've learnt so much this year, be it academically or not. I've also discovered new characteristics I have (like how bitchy I can actually get, and how bad my anger management really is). I'm still learning- we all are.

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Thank You(s)& Whatnots 

   I also want to take this opportunity to thank the people who has been continuously supporting me throughout the year. 

My parents, of course, for forgiving my previous fuck up(s) and not disowning me yet. I can't simply thank you enough. 

My closest friends (not in order) (there's so such thing as orders bruh), Micole, Xenisz, Shanelle, Diyanah, Huda, Hannah, for making the effort to be there for me all the time, and for not forgetting about me. 

To most of my other close friends (who follows me on my private ig), I'm not gonna name y'all but you yourselves know who you are. Thank you for always showing me your concern about me. I honestly appreciate them so much. 

And of course, how can I forget, a person whom I just met earlier this year but has been giving me unconditional care  & love from then on and being my strongest pillar of support, Benjamin. I love you so much. 

Y'all mean the world to me. 

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Bracing myself for the new year

   "New year, new me."

We've all heard that saying, but how true is it, really?

Every New years', lotsa people usually start writing down their New year resolutions. but how often do they actually stick by it? I know I don't. That's why this year, my new year resolution falls rather short: Finish up my 2015 new years' resolution. 

Unfortunately, I couldn't be bothered to make a new years' resolution earlier this year, however, I did make a list of "promises" to myself- none of which I actually bothered following. So yes, I'll start with that. It was actually on my blog, you can see it here >>promises to self<< Basically, all those promises to self adds up to one simple thing- Be a better you. 

That should be under everyone's To-do list, actually. The world is turning into shit & sadly, most of us chooses to just go with the flow!! 

Make a difference. Be a better you.

I'll end this blogpost here because i'm getting lazy (oops) but yep, Happy New Year, everyone!!

Remember, no matter what shit you're going through, never give up. You're not alone.