spark of happiness

when you've been down & sad for a long period of time,
you forget how happiness feels like
you forget how to live life
you tend to look at the negative side of things
you will probably distant away from some of your friends
you feel different
you feel helpless
you feel alone
you feel dead.

and eventually,
you'd rather be dead
you'd rather die.

every time you feel like giving up
every time you feel like ending your life,
a spark of hope grabs hold of you.

and when that hope comes & go,
you'll get confused
you'll feel messed up .

people around you,
they think you're on your period.
little did they know
what you've been up to.
self-harming?
suicidal thoughts?
farewell letters to your loved ones?

the hope comes back,
you feel loved
you don't feel so dead anymore
you feel alive.

&

you feel different again
you feel optimistic
you feel amazing
you feel happier.

that spark of hope
to a spark of happiness.

and when you're on your way to
becoming happier,
having a happy life,
don't let anything stop you,
don't let it go,
keep moving forward.

people will bring you down
they may hurt you,
step on your dignity,
laugh at your existence,
but don't let them ruin you.

remember,
you deserve to be happy.

things may not always work out,
but eventually,
it will.