Self-update

Hey guys, so just a self-update. I'm really sad these days. I've been feeling like this for the past 2 months. But just to make things clear, all these sadness disappear whenever i'm with my friends. They're just simply the best. But at home, where i'm all alone most of the time & i got a really noisy environment, everything just rises up to me & i get cranky easily. It really sucks because everyone who lives with me have to get a piece of my bitchiness due to my personal issues. Explains why i get scolded alot :| Well, i'm actually wiling to change that. I'm actually trying very hard. But now.. things are really getting tough for me. 

I cry myself to sleep every night without fail. I know i sound like some pathetic over-emotional low-life loser but.. it's really hard for my situation & i can't find a better way to calm myself down. I'd rather cry & feel better than to cut myself or things like that. I have too much flaws already, why on earth would i want to add more of it? Hahaha. Anyway. So yeah, i guess writing this post makes me feel better. I don't like bottling my emotions. And the reason why i chose to blog this instead of tweeting it.. Well, my twitter seems too happy to be spammed with my pathetic sad tweets. And there are alot of people there & they'd all be asking me what happened, &.. well no. Just no. :-) 

Anyway.. so um yeah. I guess that's it. 

Anyway, apart from all the inner-feelings, here's some other updates. I just finished my EL EOY paper on Thursday, it was.. manageable. But, i don't know what the results will be. Meh. Let's just hope for the best! I also bought 2 items from this really cool and cheap instashop~ met the owner of the shop today/yesterday (it's already past midnight hehe). She is soooooo pretty! (Y) Oh & i went to tamp to get myself a new phone cover. Bought a silicon neon pink cover! I like! :D.....
HAHAHAHA lol does anybody else think that the transition of mood in this blogpost weird? Because i think it's weird. From sad to happy. Oh well, like i said, the inner-emotions were really inner. I don't normally show it most of the time. Only in sleepless nights like now.

Oh well, nothing else to say.
Till then. x