overthinking.

"I want you to know something but i'm to scared to tell you, so i'll just let the first three words of this sentence explain it all.."

It started with a simple smile which turned into a wave, then a 'hi'. I didn't expect our friendship to go this far.
I can't describe the feeling when i'm with you. It's like a sudden explosion of happiness that warms my heart. I don't know why i feel so open with you. I guess i just trust you alot. Please don't make me regret trusting you?


Don't make me fall for you completely if you're not planning to do anything, please? I don't want to suffer again. But why do i feel like everything's going to be fine? Will it really be fine or am i just giving myself false hopes? This is why i didn't want to have feelings for anyone yet :( I can't depend on my feelings. I'm mentally unstable. I could get sudden pms-es, sadness, anger, jealousy. I'm just always happy around you- that's a good thing. But what if something really devastating happen to me, and i really need someone to cheer me up. Can i depend on you? Or will you just be annoyed by my sadness and leave me alone?
Haha, okay, i'm just trying to overthink and sound all emo-ish right now so that i can write more. :P
BUT WHAT IF THIS HAPPENS? Haha, i'm boring, sensitive, and emotional, will you be able to tolerate that? :-)
But it's okay though. I really thank god i met you.

xoxo,
carla.