this year has been um.. a heck of a year so far?? let me just start off by updating all of you about my current state.
Here are the things that i'll be talking about:
1. Academic state/ school news.
2. Relationships & other personal shit
3. My hair
4. My braces
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Alright, LET'S START WITH #1.
I am not schooling this year.
i don't know if some of you knew that already, or like "heard it from somewhere else" but yep i'm confirming it right now. the shitty reason behind this is because i'm retaking e-maths & poa o'lvls this year. YEP, boohoo. it's clear i'm not the smartest person around. now, some of you might start looking down on me or blahblahblah but guess what, people make mistakes, get over it & stop being so judgemental. I could go to a school, but i'd rather not because it isn't the course i truly want. And like bruv i really want to get into mass comm or at least a course i'd actually enjoy (i'm extremely picky).
so yes. NOW LET ME SHARE MY FAILURE STORY SO SOME OF YOU MIGHT GET INSPIRED & NOT END UP REGRETTING YOUR SEC 4 DECISIONS (just like me.)
Let me just get this straight. I didn't exactly fail O's. In fact, i did quite decent tbh. I mean, i got an A2 for English, B3 for humanities & a C5 for F&N (i thought i'd get a freaking F9 for f&n but i guess not). My results are not horrible. It's just maths cockblocking me from achieving my dreams t.t Idk if y'all know ah, but maths has always been my worst subject since uh.. primary school? & In secondary sch, i passed maths like.. once or twice? So yeah. & if some of you aren't aware, Polytechnics in SG will only accept if you get a minimum of D7 for Maths & English. well it sucks because i got an astoundingly shitty E8 </3
The day when i got back my O'level results.. woah talk about mixed emotions. I opened the thingy, I got a shock because wow A2 FOR ENGLISH!!!!!!!!! that's a big accomplishment okay. it really is. yeah english may be easy, but to get an A2? YAS MY HARDWORK PAID OFF. i got a B3 for humans which is really pretty decent, then i got Cs.. then as i reached Maths, seeing i got an E8. I was in utter shock. I didn't know what to do. Then i went to see all the eligble courses that i can enter after secondary school and.. woah fml it was horrible. there were literally like.. 15 courses i can choose from????? i scanned through all the papers & shit i received- thinking "no, there HAS GOT TO BE MORE OPTIONS." but no. i was stuck. i failed. i couldn't get the course i wanted. it was horrible. i locked myself in the toilet and just cried alone for an hour. i couldn't face anyone. i was too embarrassed..
all my other friends got pretty decent results and i was just there. i was happy for them, but i couldn't bear to celebrate with them. i was really.. </3.
So yeah that was what happened from Jan to Feb. That was also the reason why i couldn't blog for those few months. I was too ashamed to talk about my results in public. And.. i might've lied to some curious people about where i went. Of course, i received tons of questions on ask.fm asking about my results & which school i'm going to, but i deleted them all because as i said, i was embarrassed. When i bump into people irl & they ask me which school i was going to, i just lied to them and went "Oh, ____ poly in (random) course." i'm so sorry if you were one of those people i lied to :(( i just couldn't accept the fact that i failed..
BUT AS YOU CAN SEE FROM THIS BLOGPOST, i've finally accepted the fact because.. well, what's done is done. now that i'm retaking, i know what to do & what NOT to do. i hope it all works out now because i really really can't afford to fail again. :(
Anyway, i'm retaking E-maths & POA. POA isn't necessary for me to retake, but i just solemnly believe i can do better than last year. I used to get A2 for poa last year until o'lvls started coming closer and i started neglecting POA t.t so yep, i only have 2 subjects this year. frankly speaking, i hadn't been studying from feb-june. yep i know, i wasted 4 months this year & yea that's f-ed up. i only have 3 months left & i'm really doing everything i can to catch up & study whenever i have the opportunity. (i should be studying now but i just recovered from a really shitty migraine so yep i'm just gonna update y'all about my life hehe.).
SO THAT'S ALL ABOUT MY ACADEMIC NEWS.
#2, RELATIONSHIPS & OTHER PERSONAL SHIT
Well, my other social media(s?) are pretty updated with this one. If y'all haven't noticed, I have a...........b..bboy...boyfriend. Yucks, that sounded too cheesy/gay ew. SO YEAH i'm not gonna talk about my cheesy story here because ewgrossyux but um well you can click this link if you're actually curious about how we met & etc. SO YEAH I GUESS THAT'S IT FOR THIS TOPIC. Hmm, but for some background knowledge: His name is Benjamin, he's half chinese/half vietnamese. His mother is a legit vietnamese model (she's hot). His vietnamese name is Phan Dzung. We're both 17 this year. He was born on Valentine's day. He's exactly 30cm taller than me (he's 183cm). My entire family met him already. His family knows about me, but I have yet to meet them. (one day, i'm too shy).
OKAY SO APART FROM THIS NEW ADDITION TO MY LIFE, i shall also talk about my active friendships (that sounded sooo wrong).
Anyway, since i'm not schooling this year, i don't have many new friends. My social circle revolves around the people who follows me on my very private instagram account @scrotumacy (don't bother sending a request because i highly doubt i'd accept you) (+ i block people that i feel are too distant from me). I have my closer social circle which revolves around 2 of my cliques?? Yep, one is LJ group (Hannah, Huda, Shanelle), and the other is 4OH (Huda, Hannah, Diyanah). I meet Diy, Huda & Hannah more regularly than my other closer friends like Thalia/Shanelle etc. I also became closer to the best younger-than-1-year- friend i have which is Micole!! (it feels weird to call her my junior eventho she really is my junior from BDS) (me & her are like.. tightttt like my vajayjay) (tmi??). Micole = Calvin, so i became closer to Calvin as well :)
Apart from my girlfuhrens (and calvin), I've also become good friends with Ben's clique which consists of JJ, Aiman, Irzran, Rahmat, Abang, Nabil. Like yAS. Although i wouldn't consider JJ to be in that category because like JJ is the very first guy i became friends with when i migrated to Singapore (WE DA TRU CHILDHOOD FRENS BRUH). JJ's actually the main reason how i met Ben (harharhar). they even celebrated my birthday (which i'll be talking about on my NEXT BLOGPOST AFTER THIS so pls stay tuned xoxoxo) (i'm literally 1 month late for my birthday update.)
SO YEP THAT'S ALL FOR TOPIC #2. MOVING ON!!!!!
#3, the revolution of my hair!
OK so i'm pretty sure i've updated this blogpost about how i dyed my hair on the first week of January right?? BUT YAS i posted like 1-3 photos and NIGGADAYUM DAS NOT ENOUGH. so let me just spam y'all with photos of my purple x pink hair :">
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| this was after 5-6 months?? YAS it wasn't as bright as before :) |
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| this was the day after dyeing my hair liese's chestnut brown |
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| faded back to pink :( |
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| all the brown faded really quickly :( |
ANYWAY, on the day I/ben dyed my hair using Loreal's, i was highlyyyyyyyyy dissatisfied with the results so I asked Ben if he could help me buy Liese's Black Tea Brown/ dark chocolate/ classic chocolate (which ever is available in the drugstores) and he did :") YAYYY so yep i dyed my hair using Liese's Black tea brown on the same night i dyed it using loreal's (just because i couldn't help myself). I AM VERY HAPPY WITH THE RESULTS!! here are some photos of my hair after using Liese's Black tea brown!! :)
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| this was during the dyeing process itself ^-^ i was very happy at that point of time cos my hair had no hint of pink anymore hehe :') |
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| and the next morning after............ |
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| yep my entire head was brown! :") so happy i got the result that i wanted :> |
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| (bare faced, please don't judge!) but anyway apart from my bad skin complexion, i'm really happy about my hair hehe :> |
SO YES that's all for my hair updates ^-^ i might actually go to the salon this week to dye it a lighter shade or go for a hair treatment but i'm not sure yet, i'm really quite contented with my hair (except the back of my hair is turning.. red?!) but yeah WE'LL SEE HOW.
#4, MY BRACES!
ok now, i know that all of you probably know about my braces already but i just want to update my blog about it because i realised that i never talked about it at all :O SO YAS i got my braces on January 21st 2015, after extracting 4 of my teeth the previous weeks ^-^ the shittiest part was probably the numbing injection i get in my gums every time i get my tooth extracted UGH i hate it so much T.T the extracting itself didn't hurt at all (except for one) but yeah i even took a video of them doing it (selfie style) (i'm xtremely annoying omg if i was the dentist i'd slap myself too). SO YEP. my braces. the first few days after getting the braces itself was.. troublesome. it took me a week to get used to it? i'm very used to it now hehe.
I go back to my dentist every month to tighten the wires & change the colour of the bandssssssssss. hehe. SO YEAH THAT'S ALL.
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I am now done with 4 of these updates! YAY FINALLY. i've been wanting to update y'all about life but ugh i was sooo lazy + i wasn't ready yet. but yay ok i'm glad i've finally done this.
my next blogpost shall be about the best birthday everrrrrrrrrrr???!!! HAHA yes, i don't know when i'll blog about it, hopefully tonight if i don't get lazy!! but yas i promise i'll blog about it :)
THAT'S ALL FOR NOW.
PEACE OUT MA HOMIESSSSSSSSSSSZXCWSW!!!!!!!!!
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