Okay so i know some of you are gonna be like
"Oh, everything happens for a reason." or
"If it's meant to be.. blahblahblah"
"Blahblahblah"
wow that rhymes.
Anyway, i am just bored therefore i shall post this.
Yes. this.
My regrets from sec 1 to sec 3.
This isn't gonna be one of those emotional posts (probably not) about how i regret doing..
things and..
losing things.. ;-)
JUST KIDDING.
i'll just talk about some of my obvious #EPICFAILs (wow crap i haven't use that word since i was in P6 HAHAHAHAHA) from 2011 till 2013 because.. idk isn't it fun to laugh at yourself when you realise how retarded you were/are in the past?
WARNING: MIGHT BURN YOUR EYES
don't say i didn't warn you!
(2011)
Okay, i'll probably REGRET posting all those ugly photos,
but
Okay, so all those pictures of me were taken back in 2011, when i was Sec 1 (13 years old) no shit
well obviously, i regret having that hairstyle in Sec 1.
like shit man
WHAT WAS I THINKING?!
i look h o r r i b l e and
ew just ew.
And my smile.
DID ANY OF YOU NOTICE MY FAGGOTY SIDE-SMILE?!
crap. i look constipated as hell ;-;
Okay so other than my retarded hair, i also regret being such a biatch like oh my gooodness.
if i'm not wrong, i can recall myself behaving like some gross mofo back in sec 1- acting cool and etc.
wow if i were to have a junior like myself(when i was sec1), wow i would have hated myself.
bleahhh.
(i was a noisy little piece of poop back then)
(the more emotional and boring part begins here)
(2012)
When i became a sec 2 in 2012, i became slightly less disgusting and i think that was when i began to mature(?) and know how to differentiate right from wrong. (wow so deep) (not really)
2012 was honestly the year whereby the strength of friendship was being tested (in my opinion).
The HG group (hunger games group) (stfu dont judge) formed in like April. We played retarded games together (catching/virus/etc) (omg the memories) :'D HAHAHA.
There were tonsssss of us inside a group too :'D
april, sigh.
i miss those days.
SAD THINGS HAPPENED BLAHBLAHBLAH TOO PERSONAL TO TALK ABOUT IT HERE BLAHBLAHBLAH.
moving on!
You know how people always say "Good things come to an end"? Well in one way or another, it's actually very accurate. The HG group drifted apart. I'm not sure what happened, but yeah we just drifted.
After the HG period,
KOREOTICS FORMED.
(girl group/clique)
WHAT DO YOU EXPECT?
drama.
non-stop drama.
uGH it was so frustrating & stressful. we didn't get along with each other blahblahblah we fought so often blahblahblah we were on the verge of leaving the group blahblahblah
BUT NONE OF US LEFT..
<3 we didn't let go eventhough we hated each other from the bottom of our hearts. <3
....
crap i'm getting out of point.
Anyway, what i want to say is, i don't regret going through any of those..
sure, it hurts like hell, but at least i learned how to forgive (although there's no way in this lifetime i'll ever forget the things that happened)
2013
2013. FINALLY AN UPPER SEC.
(yes i turned sec 3) (yay)
2013 is one of those years that went by EXTREMELY FAST.
EXXXXXXTREEEEEMEEELY.
the year was like:
1.(january) yay i'm sec 3! gonna go attend the sec 1 orientation camp now! yay can skip class! woo!
-finger snap-
2. (june) yay i'm finally fifteen! i can put my twitter/instagram bio as '5teen' now and look totally cool yay
-finger snap-
3. (september-october) (ps this was my worst phase) "why is singapore's education so stressful? does it have to be this way? i don't understand the importance of studies. it's so screwed up. life is so screwed up. why must life be like school>work>family>die? why can't i enjoy life since i can only live it once? why can't i be young & wild and free? why can't i be happy? what is happiness? even if i get a decent job & a nice house, how do i know i'll be contended with life? i want to have fun. i'm only 15. why do i have to burden myself with studies? why do i have to be this stressed? you know what, screw it, idgaf, haha! my future depends on what god has planned for me, because if it's meant to be, it will be. YEAAAAAH."
okay so that was my mentality right before my SA2 exams last year. i was so screwed up. i was so unmotivated. i was so confused with life. i didn't know what to do. i felt dead, i did alot of things that i normally wouldn't do if i was in the right state of mind.
i failed every subject- except english and literature but i failed my ss so i failed my humanities overall ;-;
i was that bad. ;-;
i felt like fhjshashasjhchscja.
i knew that the chances of me retaining was like.. 80% or so. I had to past english & 3 other subjects/ pass overall to continue in the sec 4 express stream sigh.
when i got back all my SA2 results, it was the worst feeling ever.
my overall results saved my life.
i got exactly 50.
on the dot.
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2014
SO HERE I AM NOW.
I am so thankful for having a second chance.
I've learnt a HUUUGE lesson (especially last year, sigh). And now, i've picked myself up, i've found myself again and i'm pretty sure that i'll never allow myself to be in my "confused-about-life state" anymore. like.. ever.
Honestly speaking, eventhough i really regret the things i did in sec 3, i'm quite thankful that it made me wake up & realize that.. blahblahblahblah i feel weird saying this but EDUCATION IS VERY IMPORTANT :( (and i had to learn the hard way D': )
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so in conclusion,
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