foreign

nobody understands

nobody knows.

i'll keep it this way

until it fades away.

maybe it won't,

but what can i do.

im just a normal human being 

with feelings too.

a coward, i must say

i'd rather push my problems away. 

wtf why does this sound like a poem. ok screw that. 

anyway. i've been 'okay' for awhile, or atleast i thought.

i havent been sad for quite some time now.

it feels foreign now. i dont know what to do.

im confused. 

i want to tell people but honestly speaking, we all know that nobody gives a shit. nobody will ever understand. and besides, everyone have their own problems, why should i open my mouth and burden others? sigh i'd rather not. but i admit this is difficult. 

oh well,

im carla.
i hope im just pms-ing.
if not,
then suck it up.