sigh

just when almost everything is falling to place (except my studies, it's still chaotic in school),
everything started to feel absolutely wrong.
i don't know what's happening, but i keep having this doubtful feeling.
like somewhere somehow, something bad is going to happen soon.
i don't know what to do, i don't know how to prepare.
i'm like a lost kid in the middle of the ocean (i suck at exaggerating).
time is such a thief this year. like come on, it's been 7 months.
7 MONTHS PASSED BY JUST LIKE THAT.
& i'm still unsure of the shit i'm doing.

i feel so blue all the time and i keep avoiding myself to think about it because i don't want to overthink again and get moody all the time.

i feel like i'm being molted into someone else, someone different,
someone i wouldn't want to be.
or i d k, maybe i'm just overthinking again. 

anyway, this feeling can't go on.
i have to find myself and stitch my shit together asap.

there are so much more that i'd like to say, but as far as i'm concerned,
nobody actually cares.
they're just being 'nice' to you so that you'll return the favour in the future.
isn't that right?
oh well, life sucks.
goodbye.